Journal

I am always not good at journaling. I mean the kind that writing down the lessons I learned, the interaction just between me and God. My tendency is always go find another person. However, if that person is not there, or the one that I wish could be the person doesn't perform that right, it's devastating.

Ok, maybe devastating is a too strong word. After this 1.5 yrs CR training, I did get better processing those tracks and problems. I just need more help? help from where? I ask.

Am I being difficult?
As we talk about marriage, I see myself trying really hard either playing with feelings or suppressing it. Does this come to the being rational and realistic distinguish goal and desire homework as well?