How to live my days

*I don't know is my title a correct sentence...:P*

How to live my life?
This question came to my mind this morning.

A recruiter from software company that I need to call back, a 2hr rehearsal but me keeping praying and disturbed, and a "relaxed" (I guess it's relaxed cuz I think I am waiting for the dryer.) morning, I am making a halt now, thinking.

My life, God's will.
I feel bad when being overwhelmed by TONS of feelings. Especially, I might not agree with all of my feelings. (Then you definitely see the moment of "the fight between rationality and sensitivity")